This post is late, and I blame the insecurities that overwhelmed me this week. They weren't necessarily writing related, were more about identity in general, but I guess IWSG is the right place to talk about it.
I
think whenever you're involved in a creative profession it's difficult to
own your identity. I've read other posts along these lines, so I know that I'm not alone. It's
always--ALWAYS--been hard for me to say, "I'm a writer."
Aspiring
writer? Sure.
Wannabe-published
author? Absolutely.
But
writer? I don't know what it is, but saying it straight up like that makes me uncomfortable. The same thing happens when I talk about
dance. I've been dancing for most of my
life, but I've never been comfortable saying, "I'm a dancer."
Dance
teacher? Yes.
Dance
enthusiast? Of course.
Again, the sentence, "yes, I'm a dancer," is so hard for me. It's like, if you give it a definitive title,
there's more pressure, more judgment…more expectations. Sometimes I wish I could just believe in
myself and the things I create. Be
normal. I don't have anything published
yet--except one poem--though I've completed a few manuscripts. I've never performed on Broadway, though I
hope one of my students will one day.
Anyway,
it's just been one of those weeks :). I
hope everyone is doing well. I
hope you know who you are--and that you aren't afraid to say it.
Ninja
Girl
